Sin.

I was slowly sinking
"I have this under control", or so I was thinking
I was slowly fading
As I slid deeper in the mud, I thought 'i'm way beyond saving'
I wanted to cry out, but who would answer?
My burden consumed me, an was spreading like cancer
I was at a place where I could have turned back
But I pretended I was fine, an ignored all the facts
I had sinned against my Father in every single aspect
I was saddened by my sin, and the humility I lacked
He softly called me to Him, an told me to repent
But I could only ignore, His voice I'd relent
I was about to step over this looming cliff
My mind was set, my heart stubborn an stiff
I stepped over the edge, surely now I'm beyond saving
But someone caught me at the ledge, in my heart a battle was still raging

The person held me close, and said, "Daughter, obey."

So I layed all else down and confessed my sin
It was so very painful but I did it for Him
Because He saved me from a wretched death
I gave my burden to Him, and I'll trust for the rest.




"For you were once darkness, but NOW you are light in the Lord, LIVE AS CHILDREN OF THE LIGHT."

dont let sin win.

theres a first time for everything..

So this afternoon Dad took me out on a date for my second time driving. It was way to much fun and I did alot more than I thought I could.. :)

*drove on the street for the first time
*stopped at a red light for the first time
*got tailgated for the first time
*drove thru a drivethru for the first time
*parked in a parking lot for the first time
*went on 30 and passed a car on 30 for the first time
*hit 70mph on 30 for the first time.. :)
*drove to my church for the first time
*drove thru n parked in a crazy busy wegmans parking lot for the first time
*made my first u-turn
*went across the shadyside bridge for the first time


...watch out world. :)

sick n sewing.

What do you do when your home sick on a Saturday with nothing to do? Well im already caught up with all my tv shows and eating anything would just make me throw up, sooooo I sewed Kar Demi her Halloween costume. (finally) She wanted to be an indian and told me to make her something, and i kept forgetting. but i finally remembered and just in time. Thoughts?

Choices.

Finally finished my art project. Pls watch and comment, hope this is encouraging. :)

p.s. srry for the crappy sound quality.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEROasOTKtY



I kno what's good, I know what's best
But my heart just wont rest
It keeps on feedin me lies
Even with my hardest tries
I cant change, I cant move
But a path I gotta choose
Theres one wide, straight and clear
and the car I'd get to steer
Then one skinny and rough
my heart whispers, "thats to tough"
But in the car a man I see
He says, "come follow me"
His body is beaten and worn
and His hands are all torn

He grips the steering wheel and says, "You gotta trust me"
I turn my face in doubt, "But Father, what if I cant see?"

Then I see a load in the back
its the faith that I lack
and the anger and doubt
that Id rather live without.
He takes it for me,
so that I can be clean
So I hop in the shotgun
knowing its nothing that I've done.
God pls drive my life, however you choose
Im giving it to you, or this battle Ima loose.
You kno what is best.
In your will I will rest.

questions and answers.

couldn't fall asleep so i started writing... hope this encourages :)

Do I need fame? Fortune?
Of Independence, a bigger portion?
What will bring happiness, what satisfies?
What if what I've believed all along is just lies?
Is what I have not enough?
Do I need more clothes, more stuff?
If I were thinner, would the world love me' more?
Maybe if I wore more clothes from that store?
Is my popularity lacking?
My personality slacking?
Do relationships save?
From a life that's depraved?
Does love really last?
Or does this perfectness pass?
If worldly satisfaction I seek,
Will lasting happiness I meet?
If follow the rebellious path,
Would I really face wrath?
Would acceptance come, if I were more like her or him?
Is it really all tht bad, my 'wretched' sin?

As these questions sneak in my mind,
I grope for the TRUTH, Gods word I find
He opposes the proud, and gives grace to the humble (James 4:6)
No longer over this doubt do I stumble
It says joy is in The Lord, not the world and it's pleasures
In Gods place is splendor, His everlasting treasures (1st chron 16:25-27)
The only truth is in Gods word (psalm 119:160)
The WORLD tells the lies, all the crap tht I heard
Beauty doesn't last, and bodily forms pass,
But fearing the Lord is what's to be grasped (proverbs 31:30)
God says to dress with humility (1st Peter 5:5)
Fashion is temporary I now see
Popularity is vain,
All lust leaves is pain
Ur life will be incomplete, full if holes
Cus only GOD satisfies the longing soul (psalms 107:9)
As for my sins they're so bad, God can't even look
Yet he died a painful death, and all of them He took
Anger, jealousy, pridefulness, and lying
Thank God He didn't come to save the healthy, but the sick and dying (mark 2:17)
So my questions are answered and I rest in Gods word
Because all else is false, my only hope is the Lord



<3,

Becky

thoughts.

I kno what's good, I know what's best
But my heart just wont rest
It keeps on feedin me lies
Even with my hardest tries
I cant change, I cant move
But a path I gotta choose
Theres one wide, straight and clear
and the car I'd get to steer
Then one skinny and rough
my heart whispers, "thats to tough"
But in the car a man I see
He says, "come follow me"
His body is beaten and worn
and His hands are all torn

He grips the steering wheel and says, "You gotta trust me"
I turn my face in doubt, "But Father, what if I cant see?"

Then I see a load in the back
its the faith that I lack
and the anger and doubt
that Id rather live without.
He takes it for me,
so that I can be clean
So I hop in the shotgun
knowing its nothing that I've done.
God pls drive my life, however you choose
Im giving it to you, or this battle Ima loose.
You kno what is best.
In your will I will rest.


Father, in your will I will rest.