Sin.

I was slowly sinking
"I have this under control", or so I was thinking
I was slowly fading
As I slid deeper in the mud, I thought 'i'm way beyond saving'
I wanted to cry out, but who would answer?
My burden consumed me, an was spreading like cancer
I was at a place where I could have turned back
But I pretended I was fine, an ignored all the facts
I had sinned against my Father in every single aspect
I was saddened by my sin, and the humility I lacked
He softly called me to Him, an told me to repent
But I could only ignore, His voice I'd relent
I was about to step over this looming cliff
My mind was set, my heart stubborn an stiff
I stepped over the edge, surely now I'm beyond saving
But someone caught me at the ledge, in my heart a battle was still raging

The person held me close, and said, "Daughter, obey."

So I layed all else down and confessed my sin
It was so very painful but I did it for Him
Because He saved me from a wretched death
I gave my burden to Him, and I'll trust for the rest.




"For you were once darkness, but NOW you are light in the Lord, LIVE AS CHILDREN OF THE LIGHT."

dont let sin win.

theres a first time for everything..

So this afternoon Dad took me out on a date for my second time driving. It was way to much fun and I did alot more than I thought I could.. :)

*drove on the street for the first time
*stopped at a red light for the first time
*got tailgated for the first time
*drove thru a drivethru for the first time
*parked in a parking lot for the first time
*went on 30 and passed a car on 30 for the first time
*hit 70mph on 30 for the first time.. :)
*drove to my church for the first time
*drove thru n parked in a crazy busy wegmans parking lot for the first time
*made my first u-turn
*went across the shadyside bridge for the first time


...watch out world. :)

sick n sewing.

What do you do when your home sick on a Saturday with nothing to do? Well im already caught up with all my tv shows and eating anything would just make me throw up, sooooo I sewed Kar Demi her Halloween costume. (finally) She wanted to be an indian and told me to make her something, and i kept forgetting. but i finally remembered and just in time. Thoughts?

Choices.

Finally finished my art project. Pls watch and comment, hope this is encouraging. :)

p.s. srry for the crappy sound quality.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEROasOTKtY



I kno what's good, I know what's best
But my heart just wont rest
It keeps on feedin me lies
Even with my hardest tries
I cant change, I cant move
But a path I gotta choose
Theres one wide, straight and clear
and the car I'd get to steer
Then one skinny and rough
my heart whispers, "thats to tough"
But in the car a man I see
He says, "come follow me"
His body is beaten and worn
and His hands are all torn

He grips the steering wheel and says, "You gotta trust me"
I turn my face in doubt, "But Father, what if I cant see?"

Then I see a load in the back
its the faith that I lack
and the anger and doubt
that Id rather live without.
He takes it for me,
so that I can be clean
So I hop in the shotgun
knowing its nothing that I've done.
God pls drive my life, however you choose
Im giving it to you, or this battle Ima loose.
You kno what is best.
In your will I will rest.

questions and answers.

couldn't fall asleep so i started writing... hope this encourages :)

Do I need fame? Fortune?
Of Independence, a bigger portion?
What will bring happiness, what satisfies?
What if what I've believed all along is just lies?
Is what I have not enough?
Do I need more clothes, more stuff?
If I were thinner, would the world love me' more?
Maybe if I wore more clothes from that store?
Is my popularity lacking?
My personality slacking?
Do relationships save?
From a life that's depraved?
Does love really last?
Or does this perfectness pass?
If worldly satisfaction I seek,
Will lasting happiness I meet?
If follow the rebellious path,
Would I really face wrath?
Would acceptance come, if I were more like her or him?
Is it really all tht bad, my 'wretched' sin?

As these questions sneak in my mind,
I grope for the TRUTH, Gods word I find
He opposes the proud, and gives grace to the humble (James 4:6)
No longer over this doubt do I stumble
It says joy is in The Lord, not the world and it's pleasures
In Gods place is splendor, His everlasting treasures (1st chron 16:25-27)
The only truth is in Gods word (psalm 119:160)
The WORLD tells the lies, all the crap tht I heard
Beauty doesn't last, and bodily forms pass,
But fearing the Lord is what's to be grasped (proverbs 31:30)
God says to dress with humility (1st Peter 5:5)
Fashion is temporary I now see
Popularity is vain,
All lust leaves is pain
Ur life will be incomplete, full if holes
Cus only GOD satisfies the longing soul (psalms 107:9)
As for my sins they're so bad, God can't even look
Yet he died a painful death, and all of them He took
Anger, jealousy, pridefulness, and lying
Thank God He didn't come to save the healthy, but the sick and dying (mark 2:17)
So my questions are answered and I rest in Gods word
Because all else is false, my only hope is the Lord



<3,

Becky

thoughts.

I kno what's good, I know what's best
But my heart just wont rest
It keeps on feedin me lies
Even with my hardest tries
I cant change, I cant move
But a path I gotta choose
Theres one wide, straight and clear
and the car I'd get to steer
Then one skinny and rough
my heart whispers, "thats to tough"
But in the car a man I see
He says, "come follow me"
His body is beaten and worn
and His hands are all torn

He grips the steering wheel and says, "You gotta trust me"
I turn my face in doubt, "But Father, what if I cant see?"

Then I see a load in the back
its the faith that I lack
and the anger and doubt
that Id rather live without.
He takes it for me,
so that I can be clean
So I hop in the shotgun
knowing its nothing that I've done.
God pls drive my life, however you choose
Im giving it to you, or this battle Ima loose.
You kno what is best.
In your will I will rest.


Father, in your will I will rest.

What I want.

"But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed." Isaiah 53:5

Think about those words. They werent just picked out of the blue, God chose each one to go in that verse, so that generations upon generations of ppl could read them. periced, crushed, wounds. I just got back from watching Passion of the Christ w/ the bg youth (for the very first time) and I've been freshly affected by what my savior did for me. Let's face it, we all try and make ourselves look good. Nobody wants to think of themselves as a sinner. Everyday I come up with a new reason why I'm worthy to deserve stuff. It's like giving yourself Jesus points. When I do my devotions, my riteous meter goes up a little and I unconciously give myself allowance to be a little more leiniant with chores. We all have areas where we do that. It's so easy to decieve ourselves into thinking were 'good people', even tho we hear and kno the gospel that says were wicked sinners. Seeing this movie gave me a fresh reminder just how false that lie is. While I watched the crucifiction scene, I saw my face among those mocking Jesus. I saw it was ME who was whipping him mercilessly, and spitting on His face. I was the one that drove those nails through his perfect holy hands and held Him to that cross. With every sin I've committed, it was like one more blow that drove the nails in deeper. It's devestating when you really think about how much our sin, that we commit every single day, hurts God. How much pain and suffering it causes Him. How could He love such wretched sinners? I'll never fully understand the depth of His mercy. But what I do understand is that I want to live my life to glorify Him. I'll never be perfect, but I want God's grip on me to be so strong, that everything else I see looks worthless compared to what I have in Christ. That's what i want. What do you want?

God's power

So on Sunday night I set my mind to something. We have this giant giant tree in our backyard that is waay taller than all the others, and no one has climbed yet because it's pretty hard to get up into. I had one of those inspirational moments where I decided I was GOING to climb that tree no matter what it took. So, to make a long story short, after much frustration, a rope, long cozy sweats and a sweatshirt I got to the top. I sat up there for an hr enjoying the view until my face started itching. It then hit me that the vine stuff I'd been climbing thru the past 10 minutes was most likely not some kind of flower. I dismissed it tho, determined not to ruin the moment. Well the next day I woke up with a face that resembled a big pink balloon, and plenty of itchiness to go with it. I got to the doctor and they gave me lots of steroids and benadryl to take, and I basically had to wait it out. I really did look positively awful, but the doctor told me it would take at least 5 days for the redness and swelling to go away, and it would probly still be itchy for the next two weeks. Haha I dont think I've ever regretted climbing a tree more.. its ridiculously inconvenient to have a messed up face. Anyway, to the point. Last night I had my devotions on the swingset out back, and God prompted me to spend some serious time in prayer, cuz I've realllly been lacking in this recently. So I poured out my heart to God, and without even really knowing what I was saying, I asked Him for a miracle. Lot's of times when my life get's dull, and my devotions are slacking, I feel like I want so badly to see God's presence and feel Him move. So I prayed that He would work in some big way that I could see, whether it be in someone else I kno and love, or in my life. I didn't pray that my poison ivy would go away, but I think God knew in my heart that I was perfectly willing for Him to take it away early if that was His plan. Honestly, I was really believing in God that He would move in a big way. Ever since youth camp, God has really been merciful to me and showed me to put more and more faith in Him, and what He can do. Last night, I went to bed with a red, swollen, and itchy face. This morning I woke up with a normal colored, normal size face, and the itchiness has gone waay down. :) To some ppl, this might just seem like luck that it healed up a couple days early. But I see it as God once again answering my prayers, and moving in my life in big ways. This is just another one of the many reasons God gives me to put more faith in Him, and what He can do. The bible promises that with God, all things are possible. It's ridiculous how easily we can stray from really believing that when the world's promises seem to be so enticing and full. But it's only the mercy of God that brings us back to the cross and shows us what a powerful, awesome God our savior is.

rap song.

I was having my devos this afternoon and I was reading all these verses about being lost and found again. It reminded me what it was like to be lost in my sin, without hope, then to have God come and pick me to be one of His children. Lot's of times when I get to really thinking about something, Ill just start writing about it, so here's what came out today. i guess its kind of in song form...


haha sorry its sooo long.

p.s. my baby sis can rap prettay good, and my other sis can sing so hopefully sometime we'll actually finish and record it. :)


This world is worthless and crap
Just like this attempt at a rap
Seems when you look around you
There’s to many choices to choose
Its like its life or it death
Yet we rarely choose best
Cuz the good stuff looks dull
And the bad stuff looks full
Its like its veggies and candy
You kno ull pick what looks dandy
But it ends up all hollow
Consequences to swallow
See the sweetness never lasts
The happiness’ pass
And ur left at the beginning
Thinking, and signing

If I only knew the way, outta this place
Im so tired a frayed, I want a happiness that stays
And a rock that I can lean on, that doesn’t melt away
A rock (a rock)
That doesn’t melt away

Yea I’ve been there before
And since then I’ve failed ever more
No matter how much I work
At my door failure lurks
In my own strength I try
At success I really pry
I pretend that I’m strong
But for true strength I long
Cuz inside Im falling
For help Im screaming and calling
But my friends they don’t answer
Nor do those promising pleasures
I’m at a place of desperation
I need resuscitation
Who will take me in?
Who in this world can save me from my sin?

Could there even be a way, outta this place?
Cuz I’m so tired and frayed, I want a happiness that stays
And a rock that I can lean on, that doesn’t melt away
A rock (a rock)
That doesn’t melt away

My face is filthy and smudged
I feel like on with the mud
I scan all faces for pity
But none even see me
I get to the end of the line
Hope is gone in my mind
Yet after all those blank stares,
I see expression that cares
The man smiles at me,
And says, “daughter, you’re free”
It’s then I start to realize
The burden that I’ve tried
To carry on my own,
From my back is now gone
The man takes it to a tree
Where He hangs and dies for me.
I look on and start to cry
Realization floods my life
It’s my savior, now I see
I’ve treated him as enemy
Yet He’s faithful to forgive
So eternally I can live

Thank God for making a way, outta this place
I’m still tired and frayed, but I have a happiness that stays
And a rock that I will lean on, that doesn’t melt away
A rock (a rock)
That doesn’t melt away.

So this rock I will lean on
Only by His strength Ill stay strong
When temptations come my way
I resist them, by His grace
Cuz he’s given me eyes to see
How worthless this world can be
And how pointless the pleasures
When He offers me treasures
I still fail and sin
But I just make that trip again
Back to the cross
Where my burden is lost
And His mercy runs free
To every sinner like me
I was once lost and blind
But He was merciful and kind
In His arms now I see
I will stay eternally

what i do when im bbsitting.. :)

Had two hours to kill after I put the kids to bed so i just started writing and this is what happened..


God I want you to be my rock that holds fast
Through the storms of this world, I want Jesus my main mast
So that nothing can shake me, not the world or it's pleasures
I only want your eternal treasures

But this world entices, tugs my heart like a riptide
The more I try, I fail, I need you on my side
Dark lies surround me, and pull me down their wide path
But truly I kno their promises dont last

Idk what to to, Idk where to start
I kno I need you, but "No!" says my heart
It's a battle oh Lord, and I'm going to lose
if you dont come to rescue me from this city of fools

See there a black spot on my heart that's started to grow,
With each compromise to sin it's starting to show.
I try and scrub it off with works, but it only get's bigger
I whisper, "go away" but the temptations still linger

With every step I take to you, I fall three back
I kno it's a relationship with Jesus I lack
I want my way so much I'm willing to lose, closeness to God,
the world I choose.

I try on my OWN to do things 'right'
but reallly if it's not my way, I continue to fight.
How am I so foolish, to throw it all away?
Under your loving mercy I don't deserve to stay.

Yet your grace still pours in, like a never-ending flood
It washes my heart, and cleanses the black mud.
Though I'v sinned and fall short of your glory,
you still love me, you've written my life story.

For sinners, I'll never forget what you've done.
You died a perfect death, and gave your only son.
So trusting in you I can peacefully rest,
knowing your plan for my life is always what's best.

Though life will get hard, and trials will pass,
I know your love for me will always last.
So I turn my eyes to you, and let all else fade.
You, my God have saved me by your mercy and grace.



:)

BG YOUTH CAMP!!!! WOOOOOOTTTTT!!!!! :D

So our church is going on a youth camping trip this coming week and I'm really really excited. :D We get to stay up late, play sports n games n such, listen to messages by the campfire, and lots more. it'll be a blast. anyway everybody has a job to get ready for it, and mine was to design tee shirts. :D which i was absolutely SIKED for cuz i LOVE designing stuff. but i didnt want to do it by myself cuz its a big job so i got Phil G. to help me and we just finished the design and r ordering the shirts tomorrow. Im so excited about it, I felt the need to blog it. :) btw our theme is trusting in God.

last art lesson.

Tomorrow is my last art lesson, cuz were taking a break for the summer. :( So here is what I've been working on the last few weeks. It actually didn't take me that long, but I only had time like once a week to work on i cuz of school and such. Which drew the whole thing out longer than it should have taken. anyway. the assignment was to create a clothes design, draw it out against a backround, and throw some kind of prop in there to make it look something like a magazine page. But (obviously) the person isnt spossed to look real, it's more like a mannequin ish type thing. oh and i used ink, instead of paint, which was extremely fun. :) the silver of the tree and her leggings is metalic so it shimmers. haha it was so much fun. :) also, I still have to add some stuff at the bottom. since im making it like a magazine page, I'm going to add text at the bottom saying 'bece design' or something like that. anyway let me know what you think, i love advice and criticism!





<3,
Bece

Gutting time. :)

I did this awhile ago on flickr and decided it was worth doing again. Since I was sitting in my room with nothing to do. ;) Ladies, go into your purses, and start dumping. Take out everything, arrange it so it's all visible, then snap a picture, post it. (and dont forget to label everything) :) It helped me to realize I really need to clean mine.. cough.





so here is everything in my purse as of now:

writing homework
mirror
city of ember
bible
bridge notebook
3 not-working pens
glasses
key to our old house's back door...?
notebook
how good are you tract
2 combs
black nail polish. that isnt mine and idk why its in my purse
lotion
lip stuff bag. with lip stuff in it
change
curling iron
glasses case
3 working pens and a pencil
lip balm (should be in my lip stuff bag..)
love bracelet
tiny scissors
contact solution, contact case
rubberbands
electrical tape
one single band-aid
emergency sewing kit from pittsburg
jumpdrive
deodorant.. uh.
empty wallet
2 bucks
clunky watch that doesnt work. (i wore it on april fools day and never took it off... ;))
more rubberbands
promise kingdom cards from cfc..
a bunch of gift cards with cents left on them
library card




and thats. it. :) So now I tag every girl who reads this to do the same. its quite fun. ;)

<3,

Bece

pondering.

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him." 1st Corinthians 2:9

What does this mean? Think about all the most wonderful things you have ever experienced, now think about all the wonderful things you've dreamed or wished you could experience, now multiply them by a bazillion. Guess what? That's not what God has for us. Even the most wonderful thing you can think of in your mind, the MOST wonderful thing, that's no where near what God has for us in heaven. You know how we think about how wonderful heaven will be, and we imagine all the splendor and awesomeness of it? Well God says that even all those wonderful thoughts we have about heaven, are no where near the real thing. What God has prepared for us in heaven is so beyond our comprehension, we can't even imagine how wonderful it is. That's pretty amazing isn't it? And the more amazing thing is that we are even going there. Think about the worst experience that has ever happened to you. Now think about the worst possible thing that could happen, what scares you the most. Now multiply that times a bazillion. Even that is allot better than what we deserve, but it's not what were getting. Were getting something so amazing that we can't even understand it. The more I think about it, the more unfair it seems. Someone perfect like Jesus would die for someone as sinful as me? It's not fair. In fact, if God did what was fair, I'd never even have the opportunity to have a relationship with him. But I do, he loved me so much that He was willing to give his only kid, his precious son, give him up to die and suffer for me. And I'm the last person that deserves it. It really makes me think about all the stupid things I complain about, things that I dont think are fair. When you stop and think about what you would be getting if it were 'fair' it really deepens your appreciation and awe of what God did for us. :)


Just felt like sharing...

The skittle story. :)

So I just recently got back from Shadyside park, a place where i love to chill with my third sister, Emma Blake. :) So we get there and run and blade around for a bit, get shocked my electrical fences, name horses names like buttercup and afternoon, rollerblade some more, then leave. But before we leave Kt decides to be the best sister and second-sister ever and buy us a pack of skittles from the vending machine. So she gives us a buck in change and we put in in the machine and click the number and all that jazz. Then it does that thing were the spiraly thing unspins just enough so it leaves the skittle bag hanging, but doesnt drop it.


Remember Emma and I were both hungry and tired, and man did we want those skittles. She stood guard to make sure no one was watching and I slammed into the thing as hard as I could hoping to shake it loose. But it was no use, so we went to plane b. We ran back to the car and scrounged u a few more pennies from kt hoping to re-buy it. But it wasnt till I put about 3 bucks in pennies in the machine that we realized it doesnt take pennies. hence the pile of them that kept coming out of the bottom. But being the smart girls we are, we didnt notice them till they legit started falling out of the machine, leading to another 5 minutes wasted. We headed back to the car to try and find some regular coins, and Emma finally found a couple nickels and dimes in a board game box i really dont know why we had in our car... so we go back and put all THOSE coins in only to have the stupid machine keep telling us to put in more money. By this time we had been at it at least 20 minutes and kt was about to drive away without us and our precious skittles. So we went back to the car and kt sent me back one more time to push the coin return button so she could at least get her money back. I told her is wasnt working, but she made me go anyway so me and Emma ran back and starting pushing it. And all of these silver coins started coming out. It was like heaven. :) Since all that had been coming out before were pennies.



So, being the persistent ppl we are, we loaded the machine back up with all our new found quarters, and lo and behold it worked. :) We started jumping up and screaming and after 25 minutes of banging, screaming, scrounging, and pleading with the skittles, we finally got two bags for the price of one. :) Ill tell you, skittles have never tasted so good. :)

shirt?

just made this shirt tonight outta some old fabric from this horrid dress hand me down. thoughts? (sorry the pics r grainy our camera is outta battery so i had to take em with the computer)



short hair?



ok. i took these at 12 in the morning. ;)thats my excuse

and heres the actual shirt....

art.

I love art and art lessons and Mrs. Gemmell. :) Recently I've been working on a fashion project where I design an outfit, then draw a model in a scene wearing that outfit. It's quite fun and when I have my finished project, Ill post. In between that tho I was forced to do a self portrait. ;P I really really dislike drawing myself or other ppl cuz I can never get it how I want it, and to me it never ends up looking anything like the person it's spossed to look like. But I just finished it and haven't posted on my blog in ages so here it is: Id love your meanest criticism and advice. :)



oh yea. before u say anything, i kno the nose is messed up and the right eyebrow looks retarded. pls forgive. :P oh yes. the lips to.. sigh.


<3,

Bece

life as of late.

Eh, I haven't done a blog post in a pretty long time and I'm not exactly doing anything right now so why not. ;) Not much has happened recently cept I realized I'm broke and I need summer clothes. Problem. All of my babysitting jobs I do for free so I don't have an income, and my parents won't let me get a job job until I'm 16. :( (only 7 more months..) So i made up babysitting flyers and handed them out around the neighborhood. There was this one house that was reaaallly big and scary looking but I went up to it anyway and stuck a flyer in their door. As I was walking away I heard this voice saying, "heelllooooo" behind me so I spun around and there was this old guy in the driveway smoking and giving this creepy look. It was very intimidating but I'm proud to say I got out alive. :) Anyway that's all that I have to write about that's pretty interesting so... Auf Wiedersehen.


<3,

Bece

poem.

We had to write a poem for writing class at compass, and this is what I came up with. Sorry it's so darn long.. ;)



I listened to the young man talk to me,
I nodded politely, but he didn’t seem to see
He ignored all the subtle hints I gave
I didn’t care who Jesus came to save.
He said Christ died and rose again
To save me from my wicked sin
I told him I’d heard the story many times,
And that I’m too good for his religious rhymes
He gave me a look and I stormed away
What a waste of time in my precious day
I already had my life figured out.
I controlled my fate, I had no doubts.
I don’t need a savior I thought
But with this statement I wrestled and fought
I was lost in my thoughts and didn’t see
When a big mac trucked rammed into me
I tried to move, but it was to late
So much for controlling my fate
As I flew through the air, thoughts flew through my mind
Have I been wrong this entire time?
I landed on the ground, bloody and broken
Tears streamed down my face and I wished I had spoken
And asked the man more about this Jesus Christ
He had said he could give me eternal life!
But it was no use, I was already lost
The way I had lived was making me pay the cost
My life had been about me, no one else
How could a God save such a wretched self?
As the world started spinning and going black
I heard a voice saying, “Christ loves you, that’s a fact”
I used all of my effort to open my eyes and see
It was the man who had earlier spoken to me
He grasped my hand and said don’t you give in
God wants you as his child, He saved you from your sin
He died to pay the cost, you would have had to pay
So give him your life, don’t let it waste away
I felt a flood of relief wash over me
A burden off my back, I was finally free
I closed my eyes once more, and drawing my last breath I sighed
Christ is my savior, and I am His child.

fail.

So today was one of those days. We were on our way home from compass and i just lost it. I started speaking my mind (bad idea..) and ended up saying some really disrespectful things to my Mom. Recently, I've been praying that I would honor her more in how I speak/what i say so falling right back into the pit of trash talking was pretty darn discouraging. When we got home I just went up in my room and cried for like ten minutes. I felt like such a failure as a daughter, and I felt like no matter how hard i tried, I always ended up sinning and hurting someone. It really hurt me to see how my sin hurt someone I love, like my Mom. So I opened up the bible knowing I would find some encouragement and these are the verses i found: (I legit just opened it up and these were on the page...)

Psalms 73:21-26 "When my soul was embittered, when I was pricked in heart, I was brutish and ignorant; I was like a beast toward you. Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in Heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."


haha after this I started crying even more. ;/ It just struck me that I have been trying to grow by myself, and trying to be 'good' and honor Mom out of my OWN will, and not God's. I mean it's kind of obvious that if you don't spend time in devos and prayer ur relationship with God isn't gonna be that hot. But someone how I deceived myself into thinking that straightening my hair was more important than having non-rushed devotions. Which obviously led to me trying to honor Mom by myself, when my relationship with Jesus wasn't even where it should have been. The more I grew away from God, and closer to the world, the shorter my temper was, and the easier is was for me to disrespect Mom. I was so overwhelmed and I felt like there was no hope of growing, and I'm always going to be a failure. (yea, i had a pretty big pity party..) Those verses were such an awesome reminder that no matter how many times I do fail (which is a lot) and no matter how many times I put Christ at the bottom of my priority list (which I do too often) God is always going to be with me and "holding my right hand." Isn't that such good news?

anyway just felt like sharing that. :)

spanks for reading.

<3,

Bece

<3 weekends.. specially the ones filled with lot's of fun stuff. :) I could write like ten paragraphs on the weekend but I don't feel like staring at the computer for 2 hours so I'm gonna just jot down the highlights. :)

*watchin pirates
*coffe and bagels
*freezin my butt off waiting in line at Plato's..
*crawling under tables :)
*modesty scarf
*Gerald, our fish we almost bought :(
*eating ice at subway
*chilling in Jens messy room ;)
*taking pics :)
*watching America's next top model
*shoving laundry in the closet..
*talking to Elma siiiigggghhhhh
*telling Jen all of our problems :)
*playing "clean up the bus driver" oh my now I'm laughing..
*praying/pizza
*talking about how we all used to hate each other on the ride to cc. ;)
*worship/message
*"If anyone asks, J stands for Jesus" :) "If anyone asks what P stands for.. don't say"
*snow man contest :)
*bg assembly line
*gettin second place (i was very proud)
*talking with friends
*church, finding out we can't meet at the school starting in July :P (pray)
*praying with Emma. i love that girl.
*discussing dead birds. ew.
*writing birthday cards..
*Shel's party
*squeezing into one double bed with 4 ppl and trying to fall asleep (fail)
*talking to M on the phone
*watching the Olympics



I love weekends. :)



<3,

Bece

Do harder things. :)

me and Mom ad kt went on girls night tonight and I'm gonna write about what we talked about. :) Over our frosty's and waving to passingby trains (I kind of love you kt...) we read the "Do hard things" book. The chapter about 'The myth of adelesiance" It was really good. It's amazing how strong the message of the world really is. No one really expects us teenagers (well besides our persistant parents) to do anything hard or difficult that would benefit others in some way. The world tricks us into thinking that the 'teen years' are where u just kick back and have fun and everything you do is for yourself. It tells us that the most important things in life are being cool, being hot, being 'in', and being bad. I mean seriously. You're not cool unless you wear stuff from a certain store, and you can't wear stuff from that store unless your hot, and if your hot, you have to be bad to. And your not considered in the 'cool' group unless you are all of the above. Doesn't sound to cool to me. The world basically takes evil, dresses is up to look attractive, tells us it's good, and encourages us to indulge in it. And it's so easy to! I mean it's everywhere we turn. If you really think about it, the world is telling us to take these years of our life, experiment with evil, and basically throw them away. Obviously most of us have parents (thank God) who won't let us do that but it's still easy to get caught up in the world, even if it's not in an obvious or big way. It's so easy to waste years of our life worrying about stupid things like who likes who, and what this person said or didn't say. Honestly, if it wasn't for my very Godly friends, sisters, and parents i could get caught in gossip for hours on end. Reading through this chapter made me think back on the 15 years I have been alive, what have I acomplished? What have I done that I can look back on and say, "wow that was a great use of my time". Unfortunately, not as many times as I would like to say. But God's mercies are new every single morning and I know He has the grace for me to do hard things. Even stupid little things that really should NOT be hard like changing the subject when u see it headed towards gossip, sometimes those little things are the hardest. :P Anyway this post is getting very long and I have to go finish homework. that's my amazing start to doing hard things, impressive i kno. ;)


thanks for readin,

<3,

Bece

Colossians 3:23

In family devotions this morning, we read Colossians 3:23. I was so struck by it it's worth a post. :) This is what it says, "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as as reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." The part that really struck me was the beginning where it says WHATEVER you do, work at it hard as working for the Lord. That includes all the everyday chores i have to do, school, and any extra things that happen to come along. Once I got to thinking about this, I realized how bad at it I really am. I mean, come on, when was the last time you cleaned your room like you were doing it as if Jesus were right there watching you? As if Christ asked you to do instead of your Mom? uh.. not to recently. It's so easy to go about your day like everything you have to do is a bother and an annoyance. At least, that's what I find. But reading this verse reminded me how God calls us to do our work. As if we were working for the Lord, because overall we are doing our work for God. Isn't that amazing? It makes it so much easier to do stupid little things like loading the dishwasher when ud rather do something else. Remember that verse and think of it as one thing you are doing to honor a God who DIED for you. And I was planning on complaining about it? It makes my selfishness, laziness, and complaining seem pretty darn stupid. :P So anyway just felt like sharing that. :)


<3,

Bece

Valentines day

:) Today is Valentines day. My second favorite holiday of the year. <3 And I decided to do a post about it just because I love it so much.


that's it. Happy Valentines day.




p.s. kt took the pic.

<3,

Bece

weekend.

i had a very fun weekend. And I decided it's worth posting bout since the only other thing i have to do right now is write my paper which i've been doing the last 3 hrs. :P On Friday we were spossed to have a sleepover with Marcy and Emma M. but it got canceled cuz of snow. So we had family night and watched Star Trek for the bazillionth time. Then on Saturday we did chores and cleaned all morning then me and kt went over the Blakes to chill and build a snow fort. :) It never quite got to two stories as we had planned but ah well. It's the thought that counts.






After freezing our butts off, me and emma and her friend Sarah came in and i cut Elma's hair then like and hour later kt, caleb, and billy (their neighbor) came in and we all played mow. =much fun.









Then we went home and watched invincible and ate ice cream. Sunday morning we had youth prayer (<3) and God moved. After that I watched a buncha crying 2 yr olds for what seemed like hours on end but it was still fun. Then after the service we attempted to play the stupid ninja game with like 10 ppl which was pretty crazy. Then my Dad took me, tal, elma, and snead sledding. haha good times. :) There was this killer hill that took *forever* to walk up so me and tal and snead snowboarded down the bunny hill half the time. ok we tried to snowboard. on sleds. Then we all got soaked thru so we left. But first we did summersaults over fences. Dad dropped us off at the Demis where we straightened hair, talked, danced, and had pillow fights. ;) dangerous pillow fights. oh and we vacummed. Then we walked to the Hayes for the superbowl party. It was lot's of fun and we played cards legitimately the whole entire time. :)
















Then we left and now it's Monday and my life is boring again. :P

<3,


Bece

life.

We got a camera! We (i) lost our old one so i had to pay 60 bucks to a new one but it's all worth it because i really desperately missed my camera. :P So i took random pics all night ;)












i told u they were random. then on Wendsday i had an art lesson and i did this logo thing that i would love ur advice/criticism on. :)


And that's about it except tomorrow is Friday which means the weekend and I am greatly looking forward to it. :) plus it's gonna snow which is awesome but it better not mess church and the superbowl party cuz I think I'd be insanely dissapointed... so i'm praying :)


"Isn't He good? Isn't He kind, hasn't he blessed us, time after time? Isn't He good, all of our days, with endless mercy and ceaseless grace!?!?! Let us sing, He is good."

anyway sorry that last pic is blurry, my computer doesn't like me today. :(


<3,

Bece

just because.

I have been tagged. :P by the loverly rii. So I'm spossed to go to my sixth picture folder and pick the sixth picture and pray i remember the details. ;) then post it and tag 5 others. So here goes:



um. well ok. I was sitting at the computer doing my school, and I decided to take pictures. :) Just because.. and this pic is scary just because i needed a scary pic in my album. Not to interesting but ah well...


i tag:
elma
tal
phoebe
emilee
Emily R.
Ruth
Aiswarya
Bailey

i decided to do 8 ppl instead of 5 just because. :) Go to your 6th picture album pic the 6th pic, post it and explain. :)

ttyl peeps.

<3,

Bece

I love our church more..

So tonight was beastly fun. :) We were spossed to have our first bg youth meeting but it was snowy so it got cancelled but everyone came anyway cept Mr. Lynch. ;) So this is how it happened, me and Elma hung out all day then we went early with Dad to get the trailer. We got stuck, ran over a sign, and got a branch stuck in the trailer in the process but it's all chill. :) Then we got to church and unloaded the big black box things and set up. Then Emma tripped up the stairs (yes up) and got her knee all busted up. Then we played catch the baby or something like that in the gym till pizza. Then we found out it was cancelled cuz Mr. Lynch couldnt make it so we worshipped anyway and played dodgeball for like an hour. :) I really kind of stink at throwing the ball so it wasn't really my cuppa tea but it was a blast anyway. :) Then we all went home and tomorrow is church. :) It was a lot funner in real life than i made it sound. I sort of stink at writing as well as throwing balls but oh well. :) life goes on....


I love my church.


the end.

<3,
Bece

100th post

guess what? This is my 100th post!! Booyah! claps-cheers-claps some more. :) Psh, i've had this blog since May. Seems like longer but i guess not.



Nothing is new right now. :( I didn't do school today cuz i have strep so I like slept all day. :P not.fun. I'm so sick of sleeping I might puke. And if anyone tries to give me one more glass of ginger ale i think i'll scream. so beware. ;) Anyway on Sun Snead and Tal came over and we had a big giant blast jumping on the trampoline, consuming calories, and talking. :) Between the three of us, we ate at least 1400 calories. no joke. Haha so we made these cookies and every time another pan came out of the oven we ate it. :P There was never more than 4 cookies on the plate. I felt so guilty afterwards.

But anyways besides that nothing else is new. :P my life is somewhat boring. What and exciting 100th post, I kno. So sorry to disappoint you. :( Better luck next time?



<3's and hugs,


Bece

p.s. if u read this post pls comment. :) since it's my 100th post im gonna try and get as many comments as possible. random, i kno but hey why not. ;)

Friends Friday...

I LOVE my friends. What I would do without them, I really don't know. I love the fact that we are all christians and we can share about our relationship with God and deep stuff like that. It just makes my life. :) I really do not know where I would be without God's saving grace and without the mature, Godly friends I have. Actually come to think of it I'd probly be in the same place I am now. Except id be a lot sadder. :( and i kno that is not a word, i just like to pretend it's one. so chill ur jets spelling freaks. ;) Anyway all this to say I am very grateful for those of u who r my friends... and those who r not, why read my blog? jk. ur all my friends.


Here is the pic of the day:



select peeps kno where its from. ;) gotta love it.

spanks for reading,


<3,

Bece

p.s. THIS IS MY 99th POST!!!! :D

dress.

so im watching idol and it is pretty darn sad. that tiptoes guy?? seriously ppl. no offense but grow up already. :P

anyway, i took some more pics of my dress because the two i stuck up were really blurry. :P no, i haven't found the camera yet. :( pls pray i do. :) thank ya. Anyway here's some of them: :)






oh and here's a link to more: http://picasaweb.google.com/home?tab=mq


Anyway this morning we had bg girls prayer which was very encouraging and fun. :) i love my church. <3 Then the rest of the day was school and such. Nothing else worth mentioning. We had cg tonight but i didn't go cuz I had to stay home and watch ems cuz she wasn't going. I was really sad but life goes on.. and I got to watch idol which was fun. :)


in closing, I would like to ask u to do something. my sister wrote a beautiful song and it would definitely be worth your time to watch it and comment. :) so pls do. spanks here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/user/YouDidntHeDid

<3 always,

Bece

Brandywine Grace is my absolute favorite place. :)

So my weekend went something like this. On Fri, me and kt were going to hang with liv and phoebe but phoebe was sick. :( Which really stunk. :( So we ended up going over Emma's to help clean her room. :P you should definitely not be jealous. I love emma to no end but cleaning her room was no small task. ;) in fact, it was a very big task. But i am very proud to say we got it all done. In the end, there were three full laundry baskets of dirty clothes, and three full trash bags full of dirty trash. :P ick is right. Then once we were done cleaning we ate dinner and me and em made brownies. Which really failed because we didn't cook them the whole time and were way to lazy to put them back in. But oh well, life goes on. :) Then me and kt came home and watched night at the museum two with the rest of our fam. Then I went to bed.

On Sat I didn't wake up till 12. :P (whoops) we were spossed to go to the Franklin Institute but since I kind of slept in (so did everyone else) we scrapped that. So we ended up cutting and stacking wood all day. Then we went to the Demi's for pizza which was beastly fun. :) Anyway cc was great and the message was super good. <3 and I had great fun talking to my friends and drawing pimply purple persons with crayons. Then, we took the Blakes home and Martha slept over so after we dropped them back at their house we were like two mins from home and Dad was like, "wheres emily?" We then remembered we left her at the demis to play with karis during cc and figured she was still there. So we turn around and I run in to get her (this is like 11) and Mr. Demi is reading them poems. :) love that family. Then once we finally got home me and marcy stayed up till two talking about everything under the sun.

Then on Sunday we got up and went to church where I drank coffee and doodled. :) For some reason, doodling helps me concentrate better in the services so my 'notes' always end up being random drawings. Anyway after church I talked to peeps for awhile then we took Martha back to covenant. I was just thinking about how much I love our church. I just feel so blessed where God has me right now and I really wouldn't want to be anywhere else. Plus our church happens to be awesome. I just love that it's small enough that all the youth can talk to each other and no one get's left out. Plus we have really nice guys who don't act like their better than the world and everyone in it. I love bg so darn much.

So once we dropped Martha off we were planning on going to the Franklin Institute but it was already like 1:30 so we decided to go to some really boring museum in deleware. it ended up that us girls kind of just stayed in the car and talked while mom and dad went in and enjoyed the giant croc? something like that. Anyway after that we got home and I had the itch to sew. And our sewing machine is FINALLY working. So i made a little green dress. It took me like 4 hours straight but I finally finished it! :) Here's pics:




sorry theyr so blurry, i still cant find our camera. :( Its really sad.

Anyway this post is getting really long so I think ill stop now. ;)


<3,

Bece

ehh.

Life. well, things as of late... compass was today! :) yeah, it was ok. our china class was fun i suppose. ok, it was fun. and then writing was fine but i wanted to fall asleep. We watched these videos that like killed ur ears. And the BOP sound affects from all our guys didn't help either. I think I now know the meaning of a migrane. ew. Anyway after that i chilled with Maddie an Marth which was fun. :) (btw: i am very sad for tal and phoebe because they didn't get to talk to certain peeps. that.stinks. and i was very ticked for u girls) :( anyway, after that i walked to target with martha where i tried on a rainjacket-yellow dress. I felt like a puddle duck. But it was fun. Then I came bac to church and talked to some peeps and then we left. I was home for like 45 mins then i had to go bbsit the Wrights (cutest kids on earth) "So Miss Becky, how was your day?" then i came home and wrote this post. Thrilling day, I kno. :)
so that's all for now....

<3,

Bece


p.s. because life is better with pictures, (and cuz I <3 my sisters) i decided to post a pic with every post. ;)




p.s.s. I AM VERY EXCITED FOR CC TOMORROW!!! :D yayza.


p.s.s.s. I read this awesome verse in devos today and I thought i'd share. :) "The plans of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord." Proverbs 16:1 It's amazing how many times I can tend to rely on myself, and assume everything is going to turn out how I planned it. God is so good to show me that I am really helpless, and He is the one who decides what will and won't happen.