Eh, I haven't done a blog post in a pretty long time and I'm not exactly doing anything right now so why not. ;) Not much has happened recently cept I realized I'm broke and I need summer clothes. Problem. All of my babysitting jobs I do for free so I don't have an income, and my parents won't let me get a job job until I'm 16. :( (only 7 more months..) So i made up babysitting flyers and handed them out around the neighborhood. There was this one house that was reaaallly big and scary looking but I went up to it anyway and stuck a flyer in their door. As I was walking away I heard this voice saying, "heelllooooo" behind me so I spun around and there was this old guy in the driveway smoking and giving this creepy look. It was very intimidating but I'm proud to say I got out alive. :) Anyway that's all that I have to write about that's pretty interesting so... Auf Wiedersehen.
<3,
Bece
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
poem.
We had to write a poem for writing class at compass, and this is what I came up with. Sorry it's so darn long.. ;)
I listened to the young man talk to me,
I nodded politely, but he didn’t seem to see
He ignored all the subtle hints I gave
I didn’t care who Jesus came to save.
He said Christ died and rose again
To save me from my wicked sin
I told him I’d heard the story many times,
And that I’m too good for his religious rhymes
He gave me a look and I stormed away
What a waste of time in my precious day
I already had my life figured out.
I controlled my fate, I had no doubts.
I don’t need a savior I thought
But with this statement I wrestled and fought
I was lost in my thoughts and didn’t see
When a big mac trucked rammed into me
I tried to move, but it was to late
So much for controlling my fate
As I flew through the air, thoughts flew through my mind
Have I been wrong this entire time?
I landed on the ground, bloody and broken
Tears streamed down my face and I wished I had spoken
And asked the man more about this Jesus Christ
He had said he could give me eternal life!
But it was no use, I was already lost
The way I had lived was making me pay the cost
My life had been about me, no one else
How could a God save such a wretched self?
As the world started spinning and going black
I heard a voice saying, “Christ loves you, that’s a fact”
I used all of my effort to open my eyes and see
It was the man who had earlier spoken to me
He grasped my hand and said don’t you give in
God wants you as his child, He saved you from your sin
He died to pay the cost, you would have had to pay
So give him your life, don’t let it waste away
I felt a flood of relief wash over me
A burden off my back, I was finally free
I closed my eyes once more, and drawing my last breath I sighed
Christ is my savior, and I am His child.
I listened to the young man talk to me,
I nodded politely, but he didn’t seem to see
He ignored all the subtle hints I gave
I didn’t care who Jesus came to save.
He said Christ died and rose again
To save me from my wicked sin
I told him I’d heard the story many times,
And that I’m too good for his religious rhymes
He gave me a look and I stormed away
What a waste of time in my precious day
I already had my life figured out.
I controlled my fate, I had no doubts.
I don’t need a savior I thought
But with this statement I wrestled and fought
I was lost in my thoughts and didn’t see
When a big mac trucked rammed into me
I tried to move, but it was to late
So much for controlling my fate
As I flew through the air, thoughts flew through my mind
Have I been wrong this entire time?
I landed on the ground, bloody and broken
Tears streamed down my face and I wished I had spoken
And asked the man more about this Jesus Christ
He had said he could give me eternal life!
But it was no use, I was already lost
The way I had lived was making me pay the cost
My life had been about me, no one else
How could a God save such a wretched self?
As the world started spinning and going black
I heard a voice saying, “Christ loves you, that’s a fact”
I used all of my effort to open my eyes and see
It was the man who had earlier spoken to me
He grasped my hand and said don’t you give in
God wants you as his child, He saved you from your sin
He died to pay the cost, you would have had to pay
So give him your life, don’t let it waste away
I felt a flood of relief wash over me
A burden off my back, I was finally free
I closed my eyes once more, and drawing my last breath I sighed
Christ is my savior, and I am His child.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
fail.
So today was one of those days. We were on our way home from compass and i just lost it. I started speaking my mind (bad idea..) and ended up saying some really disrespectful things to my Mom. Recently, I've been praying that I would honor her more in how I speak/what i say so falling right back into the pit of trash talking was pretty darn discouraging. When we got home I just went up in my room and cried for like ten minutes. I felt like such a failure as a daughter, and I felt like no matter how hard i tried, I always ended up sinning and hurting someone. It really hurt me to see how my sin hurt someone I love, like my Mom. So I opened up the bible knowing I would find some encouragement and these are the verses i found: (I legit just opened it up and these were on the page...)
Psalms 73:21-26 "When my soul was embittered, when I was pricked in heart, I was brutish and ignorant; I was like a beast toward you. Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in Heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
haha after this I started crying even more. ;/ It just struck me that I have been trying to grow by myself, and trying to be 'good' and honor Mom out of my OWN will, and not God's. I mean it's kind of obvious that if you don't spend time in devos and prayer ur relationship with God isn't gonna be that hot. But someone how I deceived myself into thinking that straightening my hair was more important than having non-rushed devotions. Which obviously led to me trying to honor Mom by myself, when my relationship with Jesus wasn't even where it should have been. The more I grew away from God, and closer to the world, the shorter my temper was, and the easier is was for me to disrespect Mom. I was so overwhelmed and I felt like there was no hope of growing, and I'm always going to be a failure. (yea, i had a pretty big pity party..) Those verses were such an awesome reminder that no matter how many times I do fail (which is a lot) and no matter how many times I put Christ at the bottom of my priority list (which I do too often) God is always going to be with me and "holding my right hand." Isn't that such good news?
anyway just felt like sharing that. :)
spanks for reading.
<3,
Bece
Psalms 73:21-26 "When my soul was embittered, when I was pricked in heart, I was brutish and ignorant; I was like a beast toward you. Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in Heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
haha after this I started crying even more. ;/ It just struck me that I have been trying to grow by myself, and trying to be 'good' and honor Mom out of my OWN will, and not God's. I mean it's kind of obvious that if you don't spend time in devos and prayer ur relationship with God isn't gonna be that hot. But someone how I deceived myself into thinking that straightening my hair was more important than having non-rushed devotions. Which obviously led to me trying to honor Mom by myself, when my relationship with Jesus wasn't even where it should have been. The more I grew away from God, and closer to the world, the shorter my temper was, and the easier is was for me to disrespect Mom. I was so overwhelmed and I felt like there was no hope of growing, and I'm always going to be a failure. (yea, i had a pretty big pity party..) Those verses were such an awesome reminder that no matter how many times I do fail (which is a lot) and no matter how many times I put Christ at the bottom of my priority list (which I do too often) God is always going to be with me and "holding my right hand." Isn't that such good news?
anyway just felt like sharing that. :)
spanks for reading.
<3,
Bece
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